When the people from Switzerland replied to my yes that they "would let me know whether or not I was going to be chosen for the job" I feared they were going to reject me at the last minute.
Indeed, that was precisely what happened. They rejected me, on the grounds that "work permit regulations have got tougher in the last few weeks, possible difficulties financing a research project and given the beginning of the semester next week (therefore the urgent need of an assistant)".
I cannot believe this people. I cannot believe that, from day one, I told them visas where hard for Colombians, but they still went on and on saying they could get a work permit for me. They continued the process without checking carefully the legal implications of hiring me.
I cannot believe that they are now going through financial difficultes when they told me they were quite well-off because they were a semi-private school that received the money for they upkeep directly from the swiss government.
I cannot believe that they are now saying that time is an issue when THEY made the interviews just a few weeks ago, THEY offered me to start in january due to the fact that the visa was going to take a couple of months, THEY said they could make the other candidate work for them whilst my visa was being processed.
For the first time in a year I felt I was appreciated as a professional, I felt at home among senior economists, I felt being a Colombian was not going to be a hindrance, in the end, for succeeding overseas. But it was just a a mirage, created by my desperate need of acceptance and the feeling of "belonging". And now the mirage has just turned into sand... if I had felt empty a few days ago when I accepted the offer, I now feel arid and dry.